-i still miss my baby. every. day.
-every now and then it still hits me hard out of nowhere.
-the missing brings me to tears occasionally, but the daily tears are long gone.
-in my mind, she is a five year old with big brown eyes.
-at least once a week i look at asher and scarlet and wish she were here.
-her chair is the most noticeably empty at church.
-i cringe every time someone fails to acknowledge her as one of my children.
-i smile when someone speaks her name or asks about her or lets me ramble on about her.
-i love the visual reminder sophia is of what she would be like at this age and what she might be interested in.
-i have come to accept that will is the only person who still shares my grief.
-a piece of my heart is missing.
-i feel homesick for her sometimes. (like now)
-i know this is how it will always be, and that is okay.
-i have come to peace with most of the details that used to haunt me.
-she is usually not the first thing on my mind each morning, but i think of her often each day.
-i know i will have her again.
-i thank god for the savior who made that possible.
-i am five years closer to seeing her again :)
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love you mind...
I worried and worried and worried that my baby would always make you sad. I am so glad that she brings you happiness and helps you visualize your sweet baby. Loves.
I miss her too. :) Not the same, I know, but thinking of you.
I should be in bed, but right now i am thinking of you and what a woman you are... how glad I am for E8 and that you are my friend happy 5th "Adds"- lucy would give her that nick name- even if your protested.
hi als:
why would i protest? lucy is adorable. the blessed sisterhood of E8 will live on through the eternities...
love you.
I think you would be surprised if you knew how often other people think of Addison. What a beautiful 5 year old she would be!
Oh Mindi, that post was so tender. Addison will always have a very special place in my heart. As do you...
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